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Oscillations

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:32 pm

His smile was fond. It's nice, he decided. We're not used to it. Being loved.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:44 pm

He looked at him for a moment, and then smiled softly, eyelashes lowering.
“I hope you’ll both get very used to it.”

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:46 pm

Should one get used to it? Mahra wondered, tapping his nose thoughtfully.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:49 pm

He considered whether he was joking very briefly.
I think it’s okay… He leaned back on his hands and looked up towards the ceiling before looking over at Mahra. If one doesn’t take it for granted – if one is able to appreciate it.
He chuckled. After all, it’s probably not too good to be drunk on it.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:51 pm

Mahra snuggled closer and laid his head on Qingying's shoulder. Love love love!

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:53 pm

Oh god.
He hadn’t thought about the fact Mahra knew that part, too.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:54 pm

Mahra shook with quiet laughter.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:58 pm

Qingying played back Laurie’s wonderfully off-pitch singing in his mind.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 1:58 pm

Oh no, oh noooooooooo. Mahra covered his ears.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:00 pm

Oh yeeeesss.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:02 pm

I've been subjected to Laurie's RENT renditions too many times in this life, Mahra lamented.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:04 pm

Amusement rolled through their connection like the cool waters of a stream, though Qingying mostly managed to keep himself physically quiet.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:07 pm

Mahra let it wash over him, refreshed and energized by positive feedback loops. He wouldn't give it up for the world. Did you two work things out? It was asked knowingly, though. Laurie and Qin frequently butted heads, well, Laurie butted heads with Qingying because he was prickly and all-too abrasive, he could butt heads with a pile of baby puppies Mahra was sure. But they always worked it out, so far. After the initial rage, he could be reasoned with quite well. Maybe Mahra had something to do with that.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:15 pm

Qingying chuckled. “Thanks,” he stroked his hair. We haven’t spoken, after that, but he felt okay. He looked at Mahra. I think we worked it out on the steps. Also, it seems he’s intending to come to therapy tomorrow. He was hopeful about that.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:18 pm

Good, Mahra nodded resolutely. Yarah and Ryne also held fond places in Mahra's affections as an ever-present twinkle of gratitude for their presence. Yarah had been the one to talk Laurie into staying in the early days just after his arrival with Kardat Blacksworth, the Slytherin Head of House. He'd been ready to pack up and disappear the moment he knew Mahra was safe and sheltered, but Yarah had a way of getting through that the other healers couldn't replicate.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:55 pm

He smiled softly. He appreciated that she was here.
He didn’t want Laurie to wait too long, but Mahra hadn’t really answered his question.
“Well, if you find something you want, or like, or would like to try, you can tell me,” Qingying said. Maybe he couldn’t give everything, but if he didn’t know, he couldn’t try to think of a way.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 2:57 pm

Mahra nodded, and touched Qingying's face. I just want you, and Laurie. Together! Be good, now.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 3:04 pm

Be good? He raised his eyebrows and gave him a playful look. Is this something you should be saying to me?

Are you sure? He became more serious. Well… Maybe Mahra hadn’t really found out what he wanted, yet, being a child? He could feel the experiences of many others, but Qingying wasn’t sure how they translated to Mahra – if he could find what he liked from those, like one might flip a catalogue, and then voice it.
I just… It was all too easy, Qingying felt, for people to forget that Mahra had needs, too, things that made him afraid, and sad, because of the way he often was outwardly, and how he appeared like a happy, floating feather. Qingying didn’t want to forget that, or not see it – to simply see what he wanted to see, or not notice what was not as noticeable.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 3:10 pm

He appreciated it, that Qin attempted to see him as he was, and not how he was perceived, but either way he didn't mind. He didn't have it in him, to resent others, because human nature repeated itself in his experiences constantly. The good and the bad. As much of a creature of impulse as he was, he was also hedonistic, pursuing the immediate things that made him happy. Trinkets and baubles, the mind-world, family and friends, good food and drink. It was a very Veela composition, but Qin had noticed it already, he was a collector and had a veritable nest in his room of things he'd found and created. He liked experiences, craved affection and love, and knowledge and peace. Isolation and rejection clawed away marks on his soul, and abuse and suffering sorrowed him, but all in all what people saw in Mahra was what they got. It wasn't an act or a facade, even though his space, his aura, could be addicting, a Mirror of Erised in human form, dealing in dreams and deepest desires and the promise of eternal fulfillment.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 3:27 pm

It wasn’t love, to only be comfortable. Qingying fully believed that to love was to be prepared for pain – you worried for others, you hurt when they hurt; you wanted the best for them.

Qingying felt that, because Mahra’s desires were not fundamentally harmful, he wanted to make him happy. Sure, there was the subject of boundaries – perhaps, as Mahra sought, and responded, in his own, automatic, naïve manner, others might be tangled in a warm web, but Mahra didn’t intend to harm, and, anyway, Yarah had said they were addressing consent in therapy. As Mahra grew up, he’d likely learn more of boundaries, and how he affected others – because as unnatural as it was for him not to respond, not to try to heal, try to fulfil, he also didn’t want to harm – and sometimes, his natural responses stemming from harmless intentions may inadvertently cause undesired effects.

He didn’t want Mahra to have to restrict himself, but at the same time, he knew Mahra would be saddened if he made others uncomfortable.
It was very much like a seesaw, or a little figure, pulled side to side by elastic bands – one side, to happiness, and then, the other way. And Mahra, the figure in the middle, wanting to provide, perhaps providing a little much, then being tugged in the other direction.

At least, Mahra had said it didn’t affect him too much, the experiences of people. Qingying didn’t want him to suffer.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 3:33 pm

Ahhh, suffering is relative! Mahra grinned, imitating Laurie's gruff (though still childlike, somewhat high voice; his voice never would get much deeper, landing firmly in the middling range, but it did make for much amusement when he tried to assert authority, like a tiny shrieking mantis) tones. I suppose I've suffered, but I value my experiences. Every person is a world, I like exploring them. But not everyone wants to be healed, or interfered-with. I'm still learning that.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Sun Oct 28, 2018 6:02 pm

He smiled softly, and dipped his head. Not everybody was… quite ready to accept healing – or for something to be healed, at that particular time. It didn’t mean that they were rejecting Mahra, or that he wasn’t good enough, or that he was bad. Qingying knew Mahra was learning this, and expressed this with comforting warmth.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Sun Oct 28, 2018 7:28 pm

Mahra patted Qingying's head happily.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Qingying » Mon Oct 29, 2018 1:58 pm

He chuckled, and then stroked Mahra’s hair.
“I want you to be happy,” he murmured, “but not happy because that’s something I need – I simply want you to be happy for you, because you exist, and because you deserve it. Everybody deserves love and happiness, right?” Of course, there were bad or ‘bad’ people, too, but even those… Qingying didn’t wish only darkness for them.

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Re: Oscillations

Post by Young Mahra Keelan » Mon Oct 29, 2018 2:18 pm

Mahra considered it and then nodded, wrapping his arms around Qingying in a hug. I think I'm happy, he transmitted simply, honestly. He didn't want for material pleasures--well, OK, that was a lie, he loved things and kept quite an extensive collection no matter where he was, sometimes just interesting-looking rocks, but he wasn't greedy and frequently gave it all away, to be replaced with a new and exciting obsession--and he was treated kindly--this was the most important one, because he hadn't always been, and it was luxurious to simply exist now, a luxury he lavished in with every moment--with friends and family. That's all he could hope to ask for.

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